The day I created the blog, so first off
I wanted to say that I had a really good
day at school because I actually talked a lot
more especially since it was the day after
I got well from being sick. Anyways so I will
try to continue this blog as much as possible
in order to keep the site active, see ya.
Wassup people, so today
was really weird because
there was almost a fight in
the classroom but one guy
took the guys apart really fast but there was also
a girl that randomly started crying when she
came back to the classroom idk why
but so far it was a good day and i goofed around :D
Nothing much happened today except I goofed
around in class with
my buddies however it was bring anything but a backpack day so
someone brung a bucket, a frog trashcan and other funny stuff
so it wasn't that boring after all.
Went to get a haircut today, updated the site but
anything else than that so far I had a good day.
Heres a cool Terry Stream
Updated the site by adding a blue border on the sides.
Thank you for all the views!
Hello again,
today I had a chemistry test but I think I did good on it.
Had some fun at school while messing around with my friends.
Thank you for the views, apprieciate it!
Spent all day doing homework today.
Not much to say.
Had a history test today,
goofed around in class and chased my friends
around the school.
Had a german test today,
messed around and had fun at school.
Thank you for the views.
Screwed around with my friends at school,
I had a lot of fun today.
God says...
God says...
Went to the cinema to see Ant-Man 3
Thank you for the views.
Really boring day.
God says...
Nothing much happened.
Messed around with friends at school.
God says...
Nothing interesting.
Life has become better.
Will update only when something interesting happens.
Fucking hate those that disrespect me.
If I really wanted to I could kill this fat fucking cunt
that's been bothering me for a while now.
Idiots were drilling and took out the
damn electricity.
Pepsi is a preferable alternative to cola because of it's low sugar but
cola is a preferable alternative to pepsi because of it's sweetness.
Evil..
Hello again, I apologize for not updating the site for months,
I have been focusing on socialising in life and finding hobbies.
This could be a goodbye, who knows.
I'm going to see the newest spider-man movie on monday (6/26/2023), so guess it's gonna be fun.
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Apologies for the recent message.
I will attempt to not make myself vent on the site again
since it makes me look like I can't control my emotions.
Peace.
Apologies for the recent message.
I don't know why I even act like that. Like the sudden change of emotions
out of nowhere and the fact that it can happen at anytime without me knowing.
Guess they could be just regular mood swings and I'm just overthinking.
Anyways so far the day has been good, nothing new mostly other than me updating the site more.
Woke up very recently and ate some breakfast.
Sometimes I just think what life actually is, or atleast what our purpose is.
I guess God could have an answer to that since he is our creator and he definitely has given
us a purpose to live by and fulfill.
God says...
CIA put me in some-sort of brain simulation to torture me in this fake reality what I call "life"
I think maybe I'm just like a little bizarre little person who walks back and forth. - King Terry
Could relate to this sentence by a lot, sometimes people don't even acknowledge that I am with them.
Maybe they want me to suffer for a reason, I probably did something wrong to them but I don't know
what.
Do you guy's ever think what you could be if that one thing didn't happen?
I don't wanna be known but I sure do want a life where I can be happy MOST of the time.
But I don't deserve that happening to me, do I?
I can't see you guys and you can't see me but I'm happy because you know that I exist, that's why
I see all those views on my site, because of you guys. I love all of you.
Sounds kinda weird but whatever, I should be able to say what I mean the most.
And no I'm not gonna kill myself or anything. I wouldnt do that because my Mom would be really
sad if she knew her son was depressed all this time and jumped out of his window head-first.
I love my Mom, I can't do anything like that to her because I don't want her to be sad.
Care for your parent's guys, they love you and so you should love them too.
Sometimes thing can happen out of nowhere, things you wouldn't want to happen or want to.
But what if only bad things happen randomly in your life? What do you do?
I don't do anything, because I can't predict the future or change the past. I can only forget.
But even forgetting doesn't help most of the itme because it eventually comes back and hits harder.
Nostalgia is a sad feeling disguised as happiness. Atleast that's what I know it as.
I'm happy I had all those good memories but I wish I could just stay man.
Wish I could relive those moments again because I was happy during that time.
Why do I even call myself
But my real name is
My friends are the best things that have ever happened to me, they are what keeps me happy
nowadays.
Soon I will have to go back to school, in about a week or so.
I hope it's gonna be a good school year for me, because the last one I can't really tell.
I don't dislike going to school but sometimes the days there are so shitty I jus't dont know
what to do at that point, it's like the thought of being happy shatters right infront of my eyes.
I want to make it a good time, I guess I'm the only person who can do that for myself.
Not anyone else, not my friends. Me. I need to do it because they can't.
I can only blame myself for the bad things that happen to me in school.
School is CIA physiological warfare, and I keep going.
Maybe you don't have to win? But I'm probably at the point where I don't give a fuck if I win.
Who cares, I'll be homeless living in fucking alleyways and be a disgrace in the eyes of people.
Nobody gives a fuck about you if you are nothing until you snap and do something completely insane.
They don't realize they are the reason and they don't realize they acted like you weren't real.
If you don't provide something that is useful to them, they don't give a real shit about you.
They WILL take advantage of you and they will see themselves higher than you.
The real friend's are the ones who help when you are at your worst. The ones who care.
I don't know what I'm gonna be doing in life in the near future, it's a scary feeling.
All those years have led up to this point, where I now have to decide.
Maybe I shouldn't be worrying too much because stress isn't good for you but I just can't help it.
Life's been okay for now but the past three months have been nothing but complete shit.
It turns out that one of my best friend's was actually a big asshole that talked shit about us
behind our backs, probably wouldn't dare to say that shit to my face cause he's a big pussy.
I've been dissapointed from these news for some time now and can't trust him anymore.
Talks shit behind everybodies backs but when next to them he acts like he's their friend.
School doesn't feel right without him though, he's usually the guy cracking jokes during class.
I will miss the friendship because we had a lot of awesome memories together, but it's sad to
see it all come to end now. I didn't expect this from him at all, but I can't change this.
Life has been a rollercoaster of emotions, but right now it feels like
someone is constantly switching the flips up and down.
I feel like I'm in a void of some sort and when I am alone I have nothing else
to think about than the reality of this world.
I've managed to find happiness in this infinity of sorrow but it isn't a permanent smile on my face.
No one is actually happy 24/7, it's not possible to live a continous
joyful life without experiencing sadness.
Some create their own reality where they can pretend that it is a realm of constant joy and cheer.
Nonetheless I don't want to come off as an asshole in real life
because of my own suffering, I don't want to make others feel it.
Anyways, I wanted to apologize for not posting on my blog,
I've been focusing on socializing and actually trying to better myself.
I've begun working out and doing things I like, such as playing basketball.
Although it is just a hobby.
Society is malnourished of good deeds and people with kind souls.
Purity has been extracted from this planet and now only sin roams in everybodies presence.
Is this truly what we are supposed to expect now? Inevitable death that is waiting for us
while we are supposed to simply stand there and live through the suffering, it's pointless.
Life can only be enjoyed temporarily, those tiny moments and memories of joy will not last,
they never do and I'm not surprised that they don't.
In life, we are not always the ones in control over the things that happen around us.
Whether it would be death, crime, emotions.
The only thing that you can control is yourself, stop that sadness temporarily and prevent
further destruction of your soul, body and mind.
We need to learn that it is not necessary to dwell on the past, we should instead look towards
the future that is waiting for us.
I hope that all of you can remember that you are worth something, no matter what's going in life.
I don't know what I'm gonna do with my life.
The only thing that keeps me from ending it all right now is my mother.
She is the one who fought for me so much, helped me so much, loved me the most.
But, I'm not enough, I'm a terrible fucking son. I can't do this shit any longer.
I want to give up, but I can't. I also can't tell her what's going on.
I would never want my mom to worry about me, and I don't want her to see me like this.
I cry myself to sleep every fucking night because my life is so miserable.
I just want to give up, but what if she sees me. What if she sees my body.
I love you mom, but I don't know if I can handle this much longer.
To all of you, I hope that life gets better and you can find that joy again.
Because I can't.